Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again...

I got some news that should be disturbing today, but I'm not disturbed by it at all. For the most part, I don't think it's true or likely. And if it were, then it might be the end of something and perhaps the end of me. I haven't told anyone and I probably won't. This is only between me and the bearer of the news because frankly, there isn't a thing any one of you can do to help me through this. I've been wrapping my head around suicide for a while now. No, this isn't a suicidal blog, and I haven't reached 90 Day Jane status yet. However, I do have a lot to think about if things are in fact what the bearer say they are. We'll see in a few months, I suppose. If I'm still here, then I'm still here. If not, then I'm somewhere else and things have gotten far worse than I can handle.